See me as I see myself

If others see me as I see myself, they would see someone who's not comfortable in their own skin. My self esteem is not high regardless of what others may say, it's accually very low. I have it implanted in my head that there's always ten more pounds to loose and different ways to change my appearance. Everything always seems to go wrong and against me, my luck; well let's just say I have none. I bet you couldn't tell that was the real me, huh? I guess that's just what happens when you hide behind a fake smile all the time, and when you forget to put on that smile, you get the constant questions from everyone, "What's wrong?", "Are you okay?". Hiding my true feelings and discomforts just so happens to be what I'm best at.